My head has been a jumble, true, this is not a new circumstance. My heart, though, is heavier then it has been. What has happened to the joy I once felt, the delight in each day? I work, I pray each day to keep it from disappearing. I am hoping to re-discover, to bring back more hope, the positive feel, the delight in looking forward. This year has been hard on many, and I feel it personally. Basically, because I have also had a few challenges. True, the challenges and changes I have faced may not compare to many who face greater mountains to climb than I. Still, these changes came on so fast, it was hard to digest one before something else occurred. And, now I am experiencing a bigger void in a relationship. I feel this gap is, yes, widening. I don’t look forward to the time when we can’t bridge that gap. But, it may come sooner than I want. Age is a factor, something I hadn’t ever thought I would say. And, decisions, i.e., plans for the future, what to do to soften the aging experience, to make it easier on all involved, to not be a burden. Oh my. Just writing helps.